Out of my Ears

Snapshot of Child in Political Hat

sleepswithbear — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 03:57:24 +0000

Someone left it on my classroom floor.

(Every year the religion teacher makes them bring in childhood pictures “for discussion and reflection.”)

The girl in the frame is four years old, the hat a white straw boater, probably fake straw.

XYZ for President or Senate or Congress. Doesn’t matter who. She wouldn’t know or care.

Her head’s tilted slightly, though the hat is on straight. She’s got a do-you-like-me smile, so the photographer must be her father. Only Daddies can wreck their daughters’ dignity and still evoke that smile.

Who this girl grew up to be I can’t tell.

None of my student blondes would dare look that way now: silly, hopeful, sweet, sad. It’s a tougher world.

Maybe that’s why the picture ended up on the floor.

Maybe that’s why I saved it.

…………………………………………………………………………… Originally published in Expelling Trelnita (TJMF 1007).

The Alchemy of Worse Alternatives

sleepswithbear — Thu, 15 Dec 2011 19:30:10 +0000

The kids in the alternative school
are mad because Bill the Director
won’t let them
explore storm sewers,

so they write BITE ME, SHUT UP,
and DIE BILL on the walls
in colored chalk, and draw Bill
with a bullet hole in his head.

“Make the blood look real,”
one of them says.

Then a teacher laughs, “Hey
you want a sewer, we could
send you back to Main Campus.”

So the bullet hole gets
covered by a hat, DIE BILL
becomes a green cat, someone
hides BITE ME in flowers,

and SHUT UP becomes a big
fat peach in which nestles the moon
holding in her arms the sun.

Weird Kid

sleepswithbear — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 01:52:36 +0000

What do you want to
be when you grow up?

Time.
I want to be time.

What?

Time. It rules all.
It destroys all
but it flows right along.
We’re all trapped in it,
except God, and
He’s timeless.

Uh, I don’t think
you’ll be able to be Time.

You asked me
what I wanted to be,
not what I would be.

That’s true.
I did.

Raven, Raven, Raven

sleepswithbear — Wed, 31 Aug 2011 02:42:41 +0000

You can’t hide
in that yellow tree.

Doris

sleepswithbear — Mon, 30 May 2011 01:42:38 +0000

She spits out
the pills because
they make her dopey,
but without
the pills, she
can’t walk.

Every day
when they bring
the pills, she
asks when
she can return
to her home.

“When the medicine
makes you better,”
they tell her.

She listens,
takes the pills,
spits them out.

When I die and

sleepswithbear — Sun, 08 May 2011 00:59:10 +0000

go to the heaven of the poets
if there is such a place
and if they’ll let me in
and if I actually want to go there,
knowing, as I do, so many,

I’m going to ask the Muse
why she’s so perverse.

I don’t expect an answer,
or one that I can understand,
but on the other hand,
she’s so perverse
she might give it to me straight.

Song of the Dissipating Anxiety

sleepswithbear — Sun, 08 May 2011 00:49:23 +0000

Where the candle smoke goes
where the red of the leaf goes
and the color of dawn.

I have the choice
of a bowling shirt
or a waistcoat to wear

when I go dancing there.

Dream #625

sleepswithbear — Sat, 05 Mar 2011 17:18:35 +0000

My father wasn’t my father
and the light globes on the ceiling
were filling with water.

The people who said they knew me
were people I’d never seen

but it stopped raining
is beautiful outside

and that’s enough.

It’s Back

sleepswithbear — Mon, 17 Jan 2011 02:23:33 +0000

The girl waiting tables
boogies to the tune
she was conceived by.

Disco’s here again.

And again and again.

No politics to scare,
no philosophy to confuse.

Bringing the pancakes,
she shakes her booty
as her mother did

and her daughter will:

ah, ah, ah, ah,
stayin’ alive.

Blue sky.

sleepswithbear — Tue, 21 Dec 2010 20:18:33 +0000

White tree.

Raven –

loud raven.